Happiness...just a step away

I'm happy that SPM IS OVER!!!!
But.... There's just this uncomfortable feeling resting in my heart though..i think it's about the fact that I'm leaving secondary school and I have to start looking for scholarships and colleges to apply for..........sighhhhhh

Life.

One word. So many meanings.

My life starts here, now. And there just seems no way to stop it. No more meeting friends in school everyday to gossip To laugh together. To annoy each other together. To fight together. To understand each other together.
Life begins right now..... and I'm not sure If I'm ready for it. Even if It's already knocking on my door.. Will I be brave enough to let it in??

I just hope and wish that my friends will not leave me no matter what... I know some are close to me AND some not so close, but they all matter to me like the sun matters to the flowers in the field. I just wish time would stop and stand still in this moment where we are together.. But then what fun would that be?!

My friends, far apart as we may be in the future.....our happiness and good times together are just a phone call away. So pls, whenever you want to share anything with me, just give me a call, and I'll be there to bask in your happiness...

And one last thing, may we step into the bright limitless future together and give each other strength!


Our future begins!

im bored

I mean I'm tired. sorry. lol, im too tired to even change the title. sigh.....chem, im so in trouble!!!! I havent started studying...what am I gonna do? Im seriously tired man....think positive!!!! you can do this!!!!!

aaaaaaaaahhhh!

Dear readers of my little insignificant yet so "interesting" blog,

I am on the second day of SPM........yes!!!! yes! yes! yes! Yes, I am so sorry that I have gone mad from all the happiness...Not happy that I can take science subjects and moral soon, but yes happy that I no longer have to write a BM karangan any longer..I also don't have to cram my brain for history any longer.

OMg..the sej paper 2 was so difficult!! It was NOT what I expected! Almost everything I had crammed for and teacher gave in the tips did not come out!! Except Jahiliah and PBB and Mesir Purba and Yunani(which I didn't read)...I forgot to read!!! aaaaaaaaaaaahhhh...sigh...sad lar..but ah, mum says don't worry because it's over! She's not happy with the education system here especially the existence of history and moral so she asks me not to worry and be glad that it's over..

But I have to say, I am totally turning over a new leaf!! No more studying last minute in college! I will dedicate myself to being the best and only the best. Number two will simply not do!! Anyway, I will help my poor brother to make sure he does not study history last minute too! And make sure he studies and is ready for any question at all that may come out!! He's going to suffer soon..thanks to me! I just hope that he knows that this is all for his sake that he will not be like me during his SPM.

heehee...sorry bro, but I love you too much to have to see you suffer like I did. I mean. I sacrificed my sleep! I slept at 2 a.m. man..and for not much good. Sigh, so must.force.brother.study.history.from.form.4.

Exhausted

Yes. That I definitely am. It always happens when I study above my capacity which is very little. I am lousy. I will admit that. And I admit I am soooo behind in my history compared to like EVERYONE. And I am not exaggerating. I really regret this. But no choice. What's done is done. And I have to work hard man...lol

Yeah. People must be wondering why am I still here posting in my blog. Simple. I need to destress for a few minutes. Today, little for you but a lot for me, I have read 2 chapters of history and learnt about PBB and peranan Malaysia. Thanks to Esther!!!

I owe you man....though it's little. I think it's gonna help me a lot at the rate I'm going.

Anyway, today SMK Bu(3) had a majlis restu to "bless" us form 5's for taking our spm. So we were like walking up the stage and shaking all the teachers' hands. Then suddenly, Xinyi started sobbing!!!
Lol....not meant to make u feel embarrassed, but just wanting to give you a little encouragement, dear!

Don't be sad, It's not like we're never seeing each other again, It just means that we're stepping out into the world as adults, and we are going to be facing a whole new world with different challenges and trials. Of course, you are also going to make new friends, and I think that is something to look forward too, don't you?!

Just wanna let you know that I'll always be here for you, cause even if you don't treat me as your best friend, and there are more important people than me in your life, I'm always here. Friends walk in and out of your life all the time, but they don't always have to disappear. Even in the dark, behind the shadows, lurk many friends who will always lend you their shoulders whenever you feel like it.

And don't worry about not seeing the teachers anymore, cause u have their numbers! and you can always call them to go out and 'yam cha' and go school to visit them, so no one's leaving anyone ever!

Lol, xin, if you read this, I hope you're not crying again, cause this message is not meant to make you cry, but tojust give you some encouragement. One more thing, I really look up to you ler...so much more prepared for exams than me, sigh.......I mean your history and biology lar, more specifically.

haha...Whoo!! I'm tired. type so much. but feel so tired ler....can I study tomorrow? even if there might not be enough time to study finish? Hmmmmm......
I'll try lol....fine. Not like I have a choice. Maybe I should just read the tips teacher gave.

heehee...May Ling, loving Xin yi,
signing out.

spca

selangor is so awesome!!! They have like cats and dogs and really adorable cats and dogs lar...lol

Sad case, i know. So many owners leave their pets out in the cold cruel world!!!
Do not do this to your own pets!! Be a responsible dog owner!
or pet owner or cat owner....haha

and u can also go to spca selangor to adopt a pet of your very own!!
Actually, the main reason I'm writing this is because I just became a fan of spca on facebook!! Thanks to seeing qi jun join too. haha. I love the doggy pics!!
Here's one of them:

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so adorable!!!! I want him! or her....hmmm...

Poignant essay

by janice. It was awesome!!! Janice, u can really write like great essays!!! And I totally mean it. The essay was entitled "Rain". And she did a great job man!!! She says teacher gave her 50 out of 50. Whoah...im astounded.. So beautiful! She also said that it was a result of being emo at the time. So what?!? It was wonderful. Thumbs up man.

Right. As u can probably see, I'm not actually writing for something. I'm writing as an excuse to get out of studying. Not that I'll be studying even if I'm not onlining. Lol......

Sigh sigh sigh...gotta get these depressing thoughts out of the blog!!! Later no one wanna read liao. hahahaha. I'm bored. But I don't wanna do anything either. Life is such a paradox sometimes. I wish I could just curl up into a ball and sleep..... zzz

Lol...I wonder if this is what will happen to me soon.

Review

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY ANYMORE. i'M LAZY? IT DOESN'T EVEN BEGIN TO COVER WHAT I'VE DONE. WHAT I'VE DONE? I'VE NOT STUDIED MUCH
I'VE STUDIED LAST MINUTE
WHAT MORE CAN I SAY?

I'm like totally regretting this right now. And obviously, everyone knows it's not good to regret because things have already happened. But the worst thing? I don't feel like studying although exams are like 9 days away. 8 more days to study!!!!!

Okay, let's see what i've done k??

1: I've finished physics. That is one relief. But not the experiments lol. what to do yea. I'm not sure if I can remember everything though, so I have to find time to do exercise. Which is non existent snce i have so many im not ready for

2: Modern maths completed duh

3: Add Maths quite done. Just a little revision will do I hope. lol

4: Bio?? don't wanna talk about it

5: Chemistry?? Left the last chap of form 4, last of form 5, oxidation and reduction, thermochemistry, carbon compounds, and the definitions and experiments. LOL SO MUCH

6: cHINESE no need to discuss. I have to try my best. God, pls bless me!!!!

7: History. P.S:**** The worst. I'm practically unconscious just thinking about it. So far, I've read chapter one of both forms. Congratulations me =.=
wanna cry!!!!! T.T
why is this happening?!?!

nothng i can do abt it though, except study!! I mean, TRY to study. Today: Study sej chap 2, 3, 4!! so much!!! I CAN DO THIS!!!

i HAVE TO!!

OKAY, tata..
trying to study. Not yet i mean. later.
=)
you just need to lift one finger in order to rebuild, relive, give and have hope. says the artist: Mawn. Thanks!!!

My Disp Pic

I wana give credits to Misantropia!
Thanks for the nice pic that I really like but am not sure it suits my blog template.
have to think about that later. First, I have to sleep. **yawn** so tired!!!